Month: September 2008

A New Computer?

Ever since my hard drive crashed, I have had a hard time getting back into the swing of things. I am actually considering buying a new computer. A Mac… I just don’t know. There are a lot of pros and cons.

Hardware is simpler
Fresh start with computers
Specializes in media production
sleeker designs
Big monitor
No Microsoft Vista
Very Expensive
I don’t know how to use it
I like two monitors, not one
Software compatibility
Don’t know if it will help me overcome my internal dilemma

The one I am thinking about is the iMac 24″. I don’t know, it seems too expensive for not having any Adobe products on it. I also want to pick up a macro lens for my camera, but to get one starts around $600. Maybe I just need to stop thinking about it.

Andrew Carroll

The library here had the pleasure of hosting author and editor Andrew Carroll. I was able to attend his last lecture, and found it worthwhile. His area of expertise is in military history and specifically in personal accounts of the wars. Very relevant here, and he was a great speaker.

Afterwards I was invited to join him and some other people for dinner. I was torn on the matter, but in the end I was curious to see what conversation was like around a table of literature folks. Sadly, I am very shy meeting people, so most of the time I was awkward. He is a very cool guy though, I am just rusty on the social scene. We spoke mainly about entertainment and literature, as well as politics. A particular topic was Palin’s fiasco over banning books and firing people. Makes sense for the company around the table. 🙂

It was a good experience, even though I felt like a terrible drag. I am glad I tried it out, but I don’t know if I’ll be hanging out with the next big author that visits… unless I am more acquainted.

Army Strong

Seven years ago, I remember walking back from my morning class to have my roommate tell me the World Trade Center and Pentagon had planes fly into them. It was the first day in many years my school canceled the rest of classes. I remember being confused about why we went into Iraq when those responsible were in another country. Honestly, I am still flustered over it.

Not long after, my brother joined the Army. It was really hard by that point because I knew he would go to Iraq under the Bush administration. I asked him to wait, but he eventually deployed to Iraq. Of course, from home you can only think the worst things. He came back a little different, but it wore off.

Less than a year ago, I accepted a position with the Army as a civilian. For me, the job offered a great challenge and experience living outside the country (and Herr really wanted it). I thought maybe my motivation could make a difference, a positive change. So far, I haven’t accomplished anything to make that last sentence true. I hope to, still.

And now, just a few days ago, I found out my youngest brother has enlisted. He leaves for boot camp next week. At first I was angry. I had tried to dissuade him against it, seeing what happens here, how families are torn apart and divorce is incredibly common. What scares me most is what would happen if McCain became the next administration. He speaks a lot about war. Even though he has been a part of the current Congress, he has done little to improve the situation. And though my youngest brother will be assigned a better field than infantry, I don’t want to go through the emotional stress again. Now, when I think about it, I just cry.

So please send your good wishes for my youngest brother, his little girl, and his new wife. I hope his wife will understand my brother’s sacrifice and be there for him. So many aren’t strong enough in the end. Army strong.

A Note

I know I haven’t been writing a lot, but a lot seems to be going on. I have a lot of posts to write, and the first one is by far the hardest. Mostly I just try to distract myself from thinking too much about everything that is going on. Anyhow, I should probably get to the real posts.