Monthly Archives: December 2007 - Page 2

The end is near…

The last few weeks are flying by, and I am finding it more and more difficult to focus on anything. All the projects at work should be keeping me occupied, but instead I feel listless. I think it has to do with all the technicalities looming over my head. Ignoring them felt good at first, but now I feel like I’m drowning.

The car is the biggest one. We need the money from the sale to pay for the first month’s rent and shipping charges. Our celli are going to cost 350 dollars each to crate, and that does not include the airfare. A coworker made an offer today, which was awesome! I was completely unprepared, but the offer was 2500 less than asking, and our asking price is lower than KBB selling price already. How am I supposed to get along in Germany like that? C’est tres triste.

I parted with the last of my plants today. It is so hard; a lot of the plants grew with us. I’ll get new ones overseas, but all the time and energy spent on the ones I had to give up… so, I’m emotional over some plants. Blah. We’ve been slacking in weeding other things from our apartment. Several large wall pieces will have to go, some dishware… but every time I try to sit down with Herr, he’s completely uninterested. There’s also the updating account information, shutting down services, and figuring out paperwork as well as what will happen once we are out of the country. I haven’t felt very well lately, and I’m beginning to suspect it is the stress.


I have thought of several directions I could take my life over the years. My next chapter in life in Heidelberg is a positive step towards some of these goals. A few of my hairbrained ideas:

  • Get a PhD in CIS at the University of Hawaii. This is an intense program and offers knowledge in librarianship, information, and computer systems. Get a small house near the beach with a hammock on the porch. Have a dog to walk along the beach, and have a weekend project of restoring a two or three mast schooner. I would open up a bookstore/cafe in some instances of this scenario.
  • Earn a second Masters in Classics. I wanted to do this either at UW-Madison or Sanford (where it would most likely be a PhD). The problem with this is the four language barrier. With only a minor in Latin and two years of French, I was not accepted into the program because reading knowledge is necessary for French, German, and either Latin or Greek with some knowledge of the other. With the degree I would be a curator and occasionally work on archaeological digs categorizing realia.
  • Somehow learn Tibetan, Mongolian, and Mandarin to work with ancient Asian texts. I thought about this while visiting libraries in Mongolia and saw ancient Tibetan sutras being restored. This is also the least likely of all the ideas due to the large language barrier, insufficient knowledge of Asian culture, history, and literature, and lack of funding in that area.
  • Create a four-prong business. I thought this would require an MBA, which I applied for and was rejected (stress caused underperformance), but if I gain experience, read the books, and talk to business owners, I think it could be done. The four prong business is this: a hotel/b&b, restaurant, vineyard, and stable. I had started developing the plans for the building layout and how the businesses interacted. I had started reading textbooks on hotel management; considering business partners and people whose skills were suitable.
  • Build a sustainable apartment building. This was being considered for the Kansas City or surrounding metro area, or someplace farther south. Sustainable building is more difficult the colder the region (as far as I know, my ecological building books are still on my wishlist). Not only would we eventually generate revenue from tenants, but the building and grounds themselves would generate revenue and look aesthetically pleasing. It’s a shame so many organizations and businesses are blind to this.

I suppose the directions could be summed up as staying with libraries, working with languages and history, or creating a business. I have always loved to create things, so graphic design is always something I have wanted to do. However, I just don’t have that innate ability, even when it feels like I do, to see what something should be using my mind’s eye. I can visualize things abstractly, but I can’t sketch it out or explain what I see. My mind’s eye has 120/80 vision. 😛


The month of December so far as been very busy. November 30th, I decided I would begin a regiment, and I have so far stuck to my word. Yay! 😀 Every morning I get up before 4:30 a.m. and get at least 35-45 minutes of exercise in at the fitness center. I bring some food for lunch and am usually to work between 6:30 and 6:45 a.m. I make sure to get to bed earlier to make up for this, so before 9:30 p.m. it’s lights out. Over the course of the week it gets harder to do, but I feel so much better! I felt guilty eating food even when I was hungry, and now I feel okay about it and even eat less of the bad stuff! Yay! 😀

I haven’t seen any physical improvements yet, but I am able to think better and stay more focused. With all the projects I have at work, these are very important! Not only do I have more stamina and will soon be in better shape, but the first solid snow fall just came a few days ago. Yay for snow! 😀 I have a ton of projects to do around the apartment as well, but I could totally use a game break. Yay! 😀 Okay, that one was just for fun.


Which Disney Villain Are You?

You are part Lady Tremaine. You’re the evil stepmother little girls have nightmares about. Hooray for you, who helped kids learn to love their birth parents and do everything possible to avoid stepparents. Next time, though, be careful not to get in between a girl and her dreams.
You are part Captain Hook. The crusher of dreams. You are Disney’s one and only funny villain. But don’t discredit the evilness that is Captain Hook. You do your part in scaring little children and teaching a generation of adults to yearn for childhood again. Cuz hey, you just want to fly too.
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