On top of that, I appear to be a flibbertigibbet at work. I guess some things aren't supposed to be mentioned, even though I am not told they aren't supposed to be mentioned, and there I go. Saying things I am not supposed to say. And there I go. Apologizing to everyone for saying something. Even though I didn't even know it was a secret. I feel like crap at work. All I am doing is making more work for everyone else. And I am loud and obnoxious and outspoken. I get the feeling that I am sometimes in the way. I feel like I am in everyone's way. Even my fiance. All I do is give him more work, talk about things he doesn't want to discuss (details on the wedding)… does everyone just hate me? I mean, things would be better or more peaceful if I wasn't around, honestly. I don't even feel like a nice person anymore, people used to like me because I was nice. Now everyone just puts up with me. 
And at work it's even worse because I am there an extra ten hours each week, which of course adds to my sanity immensely…
In the past month I have had about a half dozen nervous breakdowns. I am not meeting my “quota” of expectations, and the quality is, well, not even passable. As we found out moving, I apparently am also an irresponsible unclean person because we got charged nearly a hundred dollars. Let's not mention the fact that half the charges were for dust on appliances that are at least a foot above my head, so I would never have seen it to begin with. Right now, I hate my life.
The big memory card just came in today so look out! because I am totally learning how to use this. :-p
