Month: June 2006

The troubles I weave…

Okay, so my subject line is a direct parodox of my poem entitled “The Dreams I Weave”… but dreams can be troublesome. 😉 Especially dreams of love… and all the troubles that love is invariably related to. But that is not what drew the limit. Rather, another clumsy mistake on my part that resulted in a not so professional newsletter release. Ugh, the pre-final was sent out instead of final, so some colors and the last sentence were left in prestine rough draftness… Bah. Humbug.

The past two weeks have been a real rollercoaster. With web design battles, handling the seven miles of cycling and reliance on a not so adequate transit system (in some crazy heat mind you, with temperatures on the rise), and the sordid business that has become my not-so-exciting birthday. And it is even on a Saturday! Aren't those supposed to be awesome? Crazy hyperness? Nah. Not this year. Again. Or the year before. This is becoming an unsightly trend… Argh!! I am holding together… I think… besides what could possibly be my worst birthday yet… I'm considering the curling up in a ball option at this point.

Ah well. But today I realized just how innovative and strong the content team is. We have people who are very innovative and are willing to try the new technologies, and a leader who is willing to allow us to do so and supports our initiatives. We're doing podcast and vodcast pilots. We have several productive blogs and are enhancing as many online tools as possible. Not only do we have innovation and follow-through, but everyone will help and finish each patron/staff request and question within the hour of it reaching us. I work with a phenomenal team that brings their own strengths, and I cannot wait to bring my own work to the table.

Who am I?

Which mythical creature resides in your soul? (11 Results + Pictures)


You are the phoenix! A phoenix is a a giant, magnificent bird plumed and wreathed in flame. The phoenix is a symbol of healing and of peace. The phoenix is calm and serene in all things. The phoenix also symbolizes rebirth as this creature is reborn from the ashes of its death during which it enrupts into flame and disintegrates. The phoenix can also be a symbol for faith and for hope.
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Work times two

I have started a temporary, possibly permanent, second “job” freelancing. This came about when a colleague I used to work with (who now owns his own company) asked if I could work on two projects. It's basic work, writing all the content for a company I am unfamiliar with and writing the help documentation for a beta application the company developed. I have done all this before, so I said I could get it done by the Monday deadline. I am curious to see how this freelancing progresses.

This opportunity also adds to my relief in my little crisis. The past few days I have definitely felt a lot better without too much reason as to why. I think the bus pass (albeit not the best solution) helps, and I will be looking at new apartments this weekend. I don't want to move, but I also don't want to deal with the purchasing, maintaing, then driving of a car. This weekend will determine the exact solution, whether I move in two months or in six at lease expiration. For some reason I feel light-headed though, so I need to move through this work quickly before I completely lose it.

Who Says You Can't Go Home?

Hoyt still calls this his home, even if he is technically living in Oklahoma. He has taken some more of his belongings with him this weekend, but I feel better about it knowing how much he loves me and can't wait until we can be together again. I am learning to accept that we are both suffering this together, and we need to do everything we can to keep moving. So, in regards to the song quote, it's Hoyt's job that says he can't go home.

This morning I did another financial plan, something I have been very good at compiling. If I can maintain a maximum miscellaneous spending budget of a hundred dollars or less, I can have all my debts paid off in six months. This is only possible with Hoyt's contribution. Unfortunately, with all the bills I racked up while he was unemployed, I cannot pull ahead with his monthly contributions. He said it was all right to continue sending money for six more months, which is far more than he needs to. Rent alone here is over seven hundred dollars though, and over eight hundred when adding in water and electricity. I have maintained it up until now, and the financial relief is welcome.

Without a car, I will be able to live more simply. I cannot just drive to the mall and buy buy buy. I am able to get my entertainment from library borrowing, and my apartment complex has a pool and fitness center. This helps considerably. I feel so much weight lift knowing I just cannot afford a car (at least for the next six months), and succumbing to the seven and a half mile bicycle ride combined with bus pass to carry me the additional ten miles to get to work every day. I just wish I had more time with Hoyt. The twenty eight hours we get for his ten hours of driving isn't enough, we both know, especially when most of the time he is running on empty and going on his twenty sixth hour awake (coming off a night shift).

I feel lucky to have such understanding coworkers; I have been slightly temperamental from the sordid mess. I feel bad for letting my personal problems affect my behavior at work and am making a strong effort to reconcile any offenses I may have caused for it. It is not like me, but it is totally like me to get flustered in such situations. *sigh* Still a lot of growing up to do. 🙂 I'll still enjoy ice cream, candy, stuffed animals, and anime for a while longer at least. Besides, having a birthday in less than a month doesn't make me older, it just makes me wiser. 😉 (Hee hee, the world can only hope…)