All Alone Again

Well, I'm living alone again. Hoyt found out last week that he was moving to Oklahoma, and that he would start May 1st. And it wasn't until Thursday they contacted with information that he would go to Shreveport, LA first, for a week of training before moving to the middle-of-nowhere, Oklahoma. I cannot help but feel that my life will always be filled with me becoming attached to people who just won't stay in the same city, let alone the same state, as me. Hoyt did move with me to Kansas though, that's more than I can say for the others.

*sigh* So I drove him to the airport on Sunday; had to cancel our participation in the last concert performed by the Olathe Community Orchestra. I don't think the conductor will ever let us near them again… we've been so inconsistent in our attendance. I was really upset that he was leaving the day before my mom went in for surgery to remove multiple tumors. But she made it through just fine, and it sounds like they are making everything work okay.

To solve the transportation issue, as Hoyt will be taking the car this coming weekend to do his actual move, I had to find a new mode of transportation. A coworker graciously agreed to pick me up in the morning, but when I spoke with my parents, my mom urged me to borrow her car as she will be unable to do so for at least the next month. The catch to that is I have to fly up to get it and drive thirteen hours south to meet up with Hoyt before he leaves. And I do not have any vacation time… so this is going to be a tight weekend coming up. I had to purchase a ticket (ugh, more spending), and my aunt agreed to drive me up the rest of the way. It miraculously works out, let's just hope it actually goes according to plan… oy…

As for my mental health, I have had my ups and downs. I'm doing surprisingly well, I have a lot of projects to work on. I really do not like speaking with Hoyt on the phone though. With Hoyt, it's always been easier to be around him in person than speak on the phone. Some people are just like that. This situation is going to very hard on me in terms of the relationship, so I hope he understands we will not be where we left off, or should I say, when he decided he had to take a job over six freakin' hours away. Men can be quite stupid, but I cannot blame him for the salary he'll be making… I better get compensated for my loneliness though! I expect ice cream and fluffy things in spades!! Okay, maybe not, but it better be worth it.